“I think while Loneliness is unavoidable and necessary at times - it is not natural to live life in such a manner. I viscerally experienced how unnatural it is when I felt it leaving every Layer of my Being. “

“Shackled to the Chains of Her Freedom

Bound to Her Inescapable Freedom!”

“Enjoy the Noise and Chaos of the World - but know yourself beyond it so that you may be yourself freely in it.”

“I’ve felt every moment of it - the moment each and every Light switched back on till now - where I felt my Pure Consciousness ‘reactivated’ within me. It may sound like I lost something and I had to find my way back to it and I guess in many ways that was the case. But it’s been more than that - it’s been a daily experience of my Soul intertwined with the Extraordinary It was experiecing my Pure Consciousness in a raw, intimate, human, grounded setting. “

“She stood in awe, witnessing the true beauty of it all -

The chanting of the Creator's names,

The dancing filled with such divine power in each step,

Her soul in union with the extraordinary”

“I guess for me in more ways than One - Love walks into your life and changes and transforms it from the inside out into something more beautiful … a Home. “

“It is the Core of His Soul

That

Is Penetrating All Layers of Her Consciousness

Till She surrenders again to Her Own Knowing 

That in the Harsh & Heavy Depths of human nature - the SOUL still LIVES; the SOUL still persists; obviously and effortlessly in the FULL BRILLIANCE OF ITS OWN CLARITY.”

“I’ve known God and I’ve clung to God when the Chaos was Tangible. I guess in more ways than one - I’ve Known God as Peace and I’ve Known Life as Chaos. When the Chaos was consistent and unchanging - I never asked it to be different - I just laid all of my self bare to my Source. 

But Now, The Chaos that I’ve Known to be Synonymous with Life - is no longer. And I can’t help but feel that God has been very delicately bringing that Clarity to my awareness - so that I may see it and know it as clearly as He does.”

“I see and feel myself received in the World around me.”

“I am the Backbone for the Innocence of Souls whose minds, hearts, spirits have been crushed by those that have the ugly and distasteful arrogance to weaken another’s mind; to disempower another’s Heart; to smother another’s Spirit; 

For who dares to weaken that which the Brilliance of God pours through; to disempower that which the Love of God pours into; to smother a Vessel of the Absolute. 

Who dares?”

“My story ... my themes ... the plots ... who I am has never been a linear experience for me and I’ve never forced it to be. I may have grown extremely fond of paths traversed within myself but when I felt called to something else ... something new, I answered - because I understood that I reached the end of wherever I was going prior. And oftentimes the territory feels widely unfamiliar - being thrown into a new internal world for me to explore.”

“So I have been focusing my energy consciously on showing/ reminding myself that it is different now - always with ease … never with rush. By easing myself into It - I integrate all of myself into the NEW EXPERIENCE - where I don’t have to convince myself that I am okay; rather I can see clearly for myself that I am okay; that I am good. Just really activating and integrating that New Internal World of Connection as a normal and natural part of who I am and my Life.“

“This ‘world’ of desolation; of the anxiety of disconnect - it is like somewhat of a playground for me - to explore. It is a playground of potential to create greater depths of Pure Connection. You see, in those crucial moments - I am seeking out of Life something that is Real and Pure to reach out and hold me.”

“I said it - because for whatever reason there is a part of me that intensely believes that She is disconnected from Life; from Her World; from HerSelf; from Her God. There is a part of me that intensely believes that She is utterly alone in this World - such that when the Anxiety unravels - I become that lonely, isolated and panic-ridden girl.”

“I feel that I lost certain parts of myself to more freely explore and unearth new parts of myself. It’s creating a blank canvas - experiencing who I am from a completely new point of view - without reaching into the familiarities of past versions of myself.”

“Disconnect - feels like an inside world where life’s default setting feels hard and terrifying; and all the layers of invincibility and strength and vigour and vitality around you have just vanished. You feel like a shell of yourself - and suddenly just living feels exhausting and quietly unnerving.”

“To the Heart of the Empty One that touched upon something in me that made my Spirit want to shrink and hide itself away from the World and everyone in it - When my Spirit is revived to its pure fullness; When my Heart belongs to my Soul once more - The World will belong to me and everything living and breathing and moving shalt flow forth from these Precious Hands of Mine - untouched by the Callousness of Your Hands and the Unrelenting Darkness of Your Heart.””

“Waking up everyday trying to kickstart the Love within your Heart - reaching out to Life - is sifting through and wading through the Chaos of Love in this World. It’s not particularly easy to seek Love in this Life isn’t it - it’s going to War to fight for the Love that matters to You - reaching for the Victories; feeling the HITS of the Losses take you down. It’s an endless and tireless maze - sometimes I’ve found myself pouring out Love to vessels … where there were no actual vessels to receive that Love. But it wasn’t a matter of giving or receiving Love there - I was experiencing a unique depth of Love.”

“Being adorned with The Jewel of my Scars - I feel more intimately that I took my Life into my own Hands to create the experience, the reality of what I needed. More than desire - when you feel the realness of who you are so vividly and viscerally alive in your heart - it is necessity to bring it to life - to sustain yourself in this Life.”

“I’ve asked a lot of my heart - everyday you know, just these little moments - feeling a before/ after - where I was asking of my heart to take a leap into something quietly hidden in the unknown. I took those leaps everyday - I feel that when your Heart takes leaps like that everyday - you don’t just feel vulnerable; you morph into this unique expression of vulnerability.”