The Goddess’ Power has returned.
Part 1
I’ve been sleeping through the days and waking through the nights … and sometimes that’s when Inspiration strikes.
But it feels less like Inspiration and more like my Heart needs to get out of itself and onto these Pages.
My Heart has so much to say but I feel exhausted … I can’t … I can’t … I can’t … I’m too tired of all of it. How shattered my bones are … and how can I begin to move with these shattered bones of mine.
I don’t know where or how to start but here goes nothing …
Love has felt like a bloody battlefield that I’ve been standing on all my Life.
I don’t know why it’s so hard to write about all of this …
Lately, in the midst of all the Chaos and Complexities of Love - ‘till now - I feel that Love has been hidden inside of me. Something hidden inside of me … felt & acknowledged by me. But never allowed … never given permission to come alive … never given permission to exist … to be real.
But Now - my Heart has been given permission to be seen ; to be felt and the whole thing has caught me off guard. It feels like I don’t know how to handle it. It’s made me realize how unseen … how Invisible my Heart has been.
And what that means for me - It’s that I feel New to the World - taking my first steps as this New Being whose Heart is being Felt; Seen; Experienced. And it’s a good thing - but it just feels like I got accustomed to walking my path with a familiar stride and now it feels like that’s all changing.
Part 2
Last Night - I started writing about Love and I felt this enormous weight lift off of my Shoulders.
It’s not a burden - rather it is pertinent to my Soul to express the Heart of what I feel.
Love for me feels like a necessity to the Heart - a necessity to my Existence.
Love for me feels like another Heart accompanying you in Life’s Journeys.
Love for me feels like a Soul holding another’s Soul;
A Heart existing inside of another Heart.
Love for me feels like another Soul coming fully alive; existing fully in another’s Internal World.
Love for me is a Soul that has Eyes to see your Heart;
Yes, Love for me is a Soul that can Hear; that can See; that can feel the Core and Absolute Essences of who I am;
Love for me if the Recognition of Self!
But ultimately, Love is an intimate journey - unique to oneself.
The Soul knows the Love that One’s Heart requires - as fuel; as sustenance; as nourishment.
Being Loved, for me, in a Way that is in alignment with my Heart;
Where my Heart - She isn’t pulling to be Loved; not aching to be Loved;
Rather, being loved, for me, feels like my Existence being quietly conquered and claimed by another;
Where I am no longer allowed to exist on my own in my Internal World;
Where I am no longer allowed to carry the Internal World on my own;
I wake up and my World; my Sanctuary is there … in His Universe;
A Guardian Angel watching over my World so that I may Live in my Sanctuary in Blissful Abandon;
He’s eased me of the weary role of Protector;
Being loved, feels like - his existence effortlessly intertwined with mine;
Boldly - intertwining HimSelf with my Existence;
A Love that boldly proclaims its Existence inside every.part.of.me.
Being Loved, for me, is a Love that Loves in its Own Will; In its Own Free Will!
This is what Love feels like for me - I know it sounds grand and deep and intense and far fetched even. But it exists and I experience it - maybe not in the traditional sense of ‘romantic love’. But it exists - the Kind of Love - that enters Your World - and bursts open doors that have long been closed shut that needed to be wide open. The Kind of Love - that makes more certain even the most certain parts of yourself - the raw and real parts. The Kind of Love - that lets you feel for yourself the stability of yourself and how the ground is always beneath your feet; how steady you are within yourself.
I guess for me in more ways than One - Love walks into your life and changes and transforms it from the inside out into something more beautiful … a Home.
Experienced by - Chelsea Avasa Khan
