"In the midst of it all - while I developed a certain sense of comfort in the flow - I knew it wasn’t my Home. I knew that it wasn’t quite where I belonged in my Life. And yet, it has encompassed a plethora of experiences that were building, transforming and layering my Home, my Life."

"Maybe that’s what my dream stemmed from - Give yourself something to live for. Give yourself the life that you want to wake up for and live everyday. Giving unto myself the Life that I feel wrapping its Vines around me; wrapping Its Tender Vines around me; around my Heart."

"In experiencing what this relationship with the chill part of me is; In embodying the layers of that vision of ease within myself - these old narratives no longer have a place within me. It is a significant thing to move on and move forward from a Way of Thinking; a Way of seeing Life; of moving through Life that was not blatantly bad or good but it’s just that you know that you have outgrown it and you don’t need it anymore."

"I just quietly feel my Heart telling me that I have arrived; I have arrived; I have arrived! Though I can’t quite sense the destination that I have arrived at, My Soul is gleaming with Pure Joy at where I have landed!

…

Perhaps, the destination is myself; the Person that I am."

"When the scales tip completely, and my World is consumed with an effortless Warmth, a familiar Tenderness that I've grown accustomed too; and an uninterrupted sense of belonging and connectedness .... where my World becomes my Home."

"I wanted to tell you how it felt like all the pieces of my heart finally found their freedom of peace; and walked towards each other for a final embrace that would permanently put it all back together ... cementing a new era of peace within my being."

"Much of my experience with the Absolute; with my Soul - has been and felt intense. I felt that intensity to be an innate part of me. An intensity that created experiences of yearning; of passion - at times feeling the Soul and Source of my existence so purely alive inside of me; and then at times feeling this intense yearning - that no matter what, I’d never be able to experience enough of it in my life. I also felt the yearning itself to be a part of me in a purely sacred and holy way."

“No matter the ways that my human nature tries to streamline the Ways of the Absolute - eventually it succumbs to Its Ways; beguiled by the REAL-ness of ItSelf that it feels within the Absolute.”

“It is profound in its nature - you’re so purely, viscerally, first hand experiencing yourself entering into new understandings of yourself, seeing your heart in new ways, consciously choosing new reflections over the old, tired and worn out projections of who you once were.”

"I’d rather be held in the Hands of Pleasure; 

In the Hands of the Pleasures of my Heart

Where I feel ALIVE

Maybe confused at times

Maybe flowing between decided and undecided moments

Where I am creating REAL things

Where I am experiencing REAL things"

“The story - the feelings; the intensity of it all; expanded to the point where I just never expected my loneliness to be comforted - that the feeling of dread/ the feeling of hurting would one day melt under the Touch of Grace.”

“And welcome a new era of EASE into myself … into my life. To flow through all the tributaries of my Life. 

And welcome a sense of peace of mind that nurtures and gives to all that I create and experience within myself and within my life.”

“But I know all too well, the perfection of the timing of life - the energies that are necessary to carry during different phases of our lives and when it naturally detaches, welcoming new layers.”

“So, here I am, making amends with my Heart once more - so that I can feel free to be joyfully at play in my life once more.”

“And then there are moments where it feels like my entire life has been leading up to a moment like this - to feel the ease of my healed heart; to experience the beating of my pure heart for the first time and then for a lifetime. “

“She needed him, she needed this pawn to be knocked off the board of Her Earthly Existence - to wake up Her Earth; to wake up the Heart of Her Earth to Its Freedom once more - to its wild and uninhibited freedom; to wake up the Heart of Her Earth to Its Regality once more - so that it remember its innate ability to lead ItSelf; to wake up the Heart of Her Earth to Its OverFlow - to incite it to create endlessly beautiful things of ItSelf.

Wake up, my Be-Loved.”

“I realized that you stay in the darkness long enough, you succumb to it, you will meet that which comforts the darkness itself and how powerful is the thing that has the capacity to comfort the darkness itself.”

“But I have learnt enough times of the Grace of Life; of the Abilities of Life - that if it has the capacity to radically deny me, then it also has the ability to radically accept me … and in time, sure enough, it did. It arrived gently and allowed me to ease into the awareness of its arrival - this radical acceptance; that felt more of a tender acceptance.”

“Life moved through me in such a way that it slowly made me a stranger to these two rooms, suddenly I was standing on the outside. Grace answered, so Quietly, and so Silently - that suddenly I woke up one day and I couldn’t navigate through my Life in ways that I had done previously. It like Grace stripped me of narratives and stories and perceptions and beliefs and emotions and feelings that just wasn’t me; from the inside out - I could feel the hollowness of it all; it felt more matter of fact than an emotional vacancy.”

“See, He never felt for a moment that he should not feel the Darkness of His Hells. He never felt that he should not feel the Darkness of Hells. He did not see it as a challenge, an obstacle to be obliterated. There was nothing in Him that resisted what had already presented itself inside His Heart. He Reigned in His Hells, not because he took control of it, not because he conquered it, not because he succumbed it, but because He saw no flaws in Hell. He saw no flaws in the Darkness of His Hells. He never tried to make Light in the Darkness. He never separated HimSelf from the Darkness. He experienced it for what it was - never questioning Its Duration or Its Intensity or perhaps lack thereof. He experienced HimSelf in the Darkness. He got lost in the Darkness, as one does, but he never tries to find His Way! He stayed lost in the Darkness. “